Monday, October 16, 2017

'Poldark' Season 3 Episode 3 (my thoughts and rambles)

I don't even know where to begin, guys, I really don't. As far as emotions go, I am feeling all kinds of wrecked right now. So far, Poldark Season Three has shown the horror of the French Revolution, poverty, mistreatment, and power gone sour. Did I already mention that this is only episode three? YES! Below I'm talking my way through this incredibly rough episode, with many spoilers.

After the opening theme, which never fails to give me chills and fill my heart with joy, the music took on a darker and eerier tone, and the normally beautiful landscape ominously flashed monstrous (angry) waves battering against the cliffs. Uh oh. The camera then panned to cold, starved, and desperate people, before many of them took off to plunder food from The Princess Charlotte. As we, and Ross, learn about the lack of food sources in Truro, George (with his snazzy wig) condemned several people to fifteen years transport, while also allowing more than twenty people to be killed and trampled to death. This was the first five minutes of the episode. Absolutely horrifying! It seems like with every new episode, George's lust for power is pushing him to depths I didn't want to believe he could reach. I'm not sure I've ever loathed a character more than him.

Thankfully, the theme of death juxtaposed with life, featured in episode one, has returned! Demelza, working in her garden, goes into labor and like the total superwoman she is--- gives birth sans a doctor, because no one on the planet wants Dr. Choake near them. Remember last season, Demelza went into labor while out fishing in a boat. She is truly a provider of nourishment and life for her family. I've always been partial to Julia's birth, but Ross meeting his new daughter? It's one of the happiest I've seen Ross, and Demelza for that matter, and it filled me with such warmth. Hello little Clowance Poldark! Even though the beginning of this episode started with such tragedy, there is still some hope! It was heartwarming to see Ross and Delemza happy with one another, and even working together for the good of their community and in rallying around Caroline.

Geoffrey Charles has fast become my favorite character. His blatant refusal to follow any of George's rules has me chuckling so much. He is clearly Aunt Agatha 2.0, and I couldn't be more thrilled. I love how much he wants to be involved with Ross and Demelza, even going so far as to sneak off to Clowance's christening. Did we all catch how impressed Ross was with that, too? I actually laughed out loud when GC later told Morwenna, "I'd like to know my cousin Clowance better. I'd wager she's less dull than Valentine." Of course, good ol' Uncle George overheard the entire conversation and informed Elizabeth of the happy news...

Shall we rapid fire? Oh yes:

- Ross and Aunt Agatha need more screen time together.
- Elizabeth throwing Morwenna under the bus? Classy.
- George naming Slime-Ball Mr. Whitworth as Morwenna's punishment is one of the most disgusting things I've witnessed.
- Mr. Whitworth's wife DIED ONE WEEK AGO PEOPLE ONE WEEK! And now he's ready to mingle and snatch up a new wife? Sickening. (shudders, cringes, barfs).
- George is also making profit off of the harvest failure, so that means the underprivileged starve because he only cares about himself and his station in life.
- I want to be invited to a Poldark Christmas! The singing, the fire, the company. I'll be waiting for my invite next time, okay? Okay.
- Sam is starting to talk like his father. I'm legit frightened and will be paying closer attention to him.
- Demelza and Caroline have reached BFF level now, right? RIGHT?
- George SOLD Morwenna to Mr. Slimeworth for 3,000 pounds. I can't even...
- I really can't even since he refused to pay 50 guineas to help feed the poor.
- Poor Morwenna.
- Poor Drake.
- Poor young love.
- But what is love when George and Elizabeth set the marital standards?
- The Poldark's and their friends teaming up in order to feed the people? Even against the law? Did anyone else feel like standing up and applauding them? I love the dynamic between all of them.
- Ross then mic-dropping the trickery and savagery on George.
- Boom. Roasted.
- George, with his bruised ego, has decided to close down Wheal Leisure forcing seventy families out of jobs and into even dire poverty. Yep. George has officially become the devil.
- Ross and Demelza teamed up again in order to provide thirty of those jobs back, without a profit for themselves. See, when they work together? Beautiful things happen!
- Dwight crying?

     lost in a sea of my own tears.


Sunday, October 15, 2017

'Poldark' Season 3 Episodes 1-2 (my thoughts and rambles)

Last September I discovered Poldark, and I haven't looked back. Nope. Not even after Ross did that thing he did near the end of Season Two. Nope. Can't stop. Won't stop. It's all about the Poldark over here. When I stayed up all night binge watching Season One, I was as prepared as one could be for Season Two to premiere on Masterpiece... insert a big L O L because Season Two nearly wrecked me. Ross. Why? Why???? However, Delmeza, the queen that she is, reigned big and bright. That girl can slay with her wit and quips. Ever since Ross rescued her in the very first episode, I've had a soft spot for Demelza. She is the the rags to kind-of riches story we all love. Cinderella is a comparison I can make, even though Ross is not nearly the Prince Charming we swoon over in the Disney tale. Handsome? Oh yes. Flawed? One hundred thousand percent. Redeemable? I think so. Basically, Ross is the guy that was married with responsibilities before he knew what it really meant to be a husband, ya know? I still love the guy though.

I had to stop myself from actually writing October 1st in my calendar as Poldark Day, even though I felt that in my head and in my fangirl heart. Ten months is a really long time to have to wait for a new season to premiere, but when it did, oh it did. As you can imagine, I have thoughts about what is already shaping to be an incredible season. New characters, old characters, new threats, old threats, and a rising and sassy star.

So, if you want to relive the first two episodes, from Season Three, continue reading! (spoilers)


You don't know how happy I was to see the Cornwall scenery again! The show opened with Elizabeth nearly getting thrown from her horse, and hello--- why is Elizabeth riding a horse so far into her pregnancy? Was that customary back then? Anyway, of course Ross is there to save her, and of course George appears and ruins everything, mostly my mood. That guy is nasty.

Within the first ten minutes we're introduced to an older Geoffrey Charles! I love how much he has aged, since it's a great reference for how much time has passed since Season One. Remember, way back when Francis and Elizabeth weren't even married? GC is already becoming a favorite character of mine. His refusal to take George's name makes my heart melt: "Since you wish it, I will change my name to Geoffrey Charles FRANCIS Poldark." YES GC YES!!! Don't think I didn't crack up at Aunt Agatha's snickers. She's still Team George Sucks. The shared jokes and looks between GC and Aunt Agatha are so great. I have always loved Aunt Agatha's sass, especially towards George, and now that she and GC are teaming up? It's so perfect. I can't help but think Francis would be proud. Aw man, now I'm sad about Francis. Miss you </3

Rapid fire thoughts:

- Demelza has a cute younger brother? He's there to fetch her home? No. No more drama!
- Did George's equally nasty uncle refer to Elizabeth as a brood mere?! *side eyes so hard*
- I hate that George is keeping GC from seeing Ross, but did we see the look of disgust on GC's face when George returned home? Clearly someone else can read right through all of the slime.
- So phase one in George getting rid of GC is to bring in Morwenna as governess? Also, this is the second new character introduced to the show. How are we feeling about this?
- Elizabeth is clearly going into "early" labor. Even Demelza is hint hinting.
- As much as I never wanted to see Demelza's father again, I loved seeing her in a different setting. Just a little bit more into her life pre-Ross, which is something we only got a small glimpse of.
- I already love Drake. When he told Demelza "I just want to get out," nope. I swear my eyes are just sweating all of a sudden.
- GASP! DWIGHT! CAROLINE! SECRET WEDDING! DWIGHT! <333333 Now we know what all of the notes and secret code talks between Ross and Demelza were about. They are SO team Dwightline? Carowight? What are we going with? Yes. I know I talk way too much about teams.
- And then Elizabeth stages a fake accident to justify her having a baby one month early.
- And then said fake accident interrupts Dwight and Caroline's wedding night.
- Does everyone but George question Valentine's true father? Can we also talk about the name choice of Valentine George? I agree with Aunt Agatha, Joshua or Ross would have been better.
- This whole red/black moon business is really freaky. I'm actually scared about the future...
- Oh look, it's just Ross creepin' round Trenwith. We all know nothing good comes from that.
- The running on the beach scene gets sadder every time I re-watch it. There's about 99.99999 million percent chance Valentine is not George's biological son, so I do feel bad for Ross.
- Alright. As much as I think this is going to backfire, I can see why Ross made the deal with George. He doesn't want GC and Aunt Agatha being used as pawns in George's evil games. Is there a part of Ross that would rather walk away then watch Valentine be raised by George?
- Don't fret too long, Ross, because Demelza's pregnant again. Jumps for joy! So, if we're going by the books, Ross and Demelza still have two more babies to come!
- George is eyeing to be made magistrate. Please no please no please no.
- Sam, Drake, and Demelza have a great and burgeoning sibling relationship.
- Drake and Morwenna? Yep. As long as GC keeps showing up on Poldark land.

As a whole, this was a fantastic season premiere. There was so much covered in two hours, from the questionable birth of Valentine, to the deaths of Demelza's dad and Caroline's uncle. It introduced several new characters, most notably Drake, Sam, and Morwenna. Plus it introduced an older, wise, sassy, and George-hating Geoffrey Charles! Aunt Agatha was as always a welcome comedic relief since the undercurrent of the French Revolution is starting to become a major presence in the show. I'm pleased that Ross and Demelza are trying to work on their marriage, and hopefully the new baby will help that. However, Ross turning down the magistrate's position in favor of George I fear is a HUGE MISTAKE. George in charge of ruling over the people, the common folk? I do shudder. Just let it simmer, George, you were definitely second choice. Again. Ha! Finally, Dwight is alive, but in a terrible situation... which means Ross is off to France...

no no no no no no.

Once again, George is back to his repulsive ways. He not only took over almost everything the Poldark's own, but he's now forbidding people from attending church? What the what? I love (in a totally sarcastic way) that George can dictate who can worship and where. Poor Sam and Drake have taken to standing outside, but at least they're irritating George. While we're speaking of the devil himself, George was sworn is as magistrate. Did anyone else get full-body chills since his swearing in was a montage with the brutality of the French Revolution, namely the guy losing his head? So gross, yet necessary in order to depict what the people's lives will be like under George's rule. It reminds me of the previous episode when death was juxtaposed with birth.

While George is parading around like a peacock, super sly (or super spy?) Ross is in France with Tholly. I really wish Ross would stop putting himself in scary and dangerous situations. I know he's doing this to find information about Dwight, which it's Dwight I KNOW, but France is not exactly a walk in the park right now. Do we not recall people were literally getting slashed and punched in the street...during the day? Not only that, but the bar-maiden? Nope. She is not up to good.

For once, Ross can see that too! Thank you, Ross, thank you.

Rapid fire:

- Caroline and Demelza as friends? I approve. I only wish Verity was back, because the three of them in the previous episode were perfect. Girl power!
- Yep. George is a monster. Flogging? Taking back the church so Sam and Drake can't use it?
- Wait. Tholly speaks French?!
- That shrug from the bar-maiden when Ross was dragged out of the bar? I KNEW SHE WAS UP TO NO GOOD. UGH. UGH. UGH. Who's the super spy now?
- Demelza stepping in Ross's shoes to help her brothers? This is why she is queen, amiright?
- Ross is shelling out money like crazy in this episode. Payment for lists: 50, 50, 100. Dwight's life? Priceless. Um, I know this is probably the most inappropriate time to bring this up, but I'm okay with Dwight having a beard. Sorry?
- Elizabeth agreeing with George. Is it sincere? Or is she up to something?
- Nevermind. She now sees what a vile man she's married. Can only imagine this will not end well.

As we wait for episode three, we at least know that Ross has safely returned home, things are pretty good between he and Demelza, Dwight is alive (but living in unthinkable conditions as a prisoner). Drake and Morwenna are trying to win awards for the most adorable couple (yet not official couple) ever. Sam is happily establishing a church in an old store-house on Nampara land (yeah Ross wasn't too happy about that), Elizabeth has taken to dulling her senses because being George's wife is the biggest mistake she's ever made, and finally---  Lieutenant Hugh Armitage. Did anyone else catch the name of the wounded man Dwight was helping? If you know anything about the book series, then you should know Armitage is not a character to forget.

 *cough Especially You Ross cough*

I'm sorry, did I cough that out loud?


Friday, October 13, 2017

Why I Stopped Watching SO Many YouTube Videos

If I go back and tally up how many hours I've spent watching YouTube videos, I'll most likely cringe with regret. How many hours now gone that I could have been applying myself in other places? Now, I'm not saying watching YouTube is bad, since I still frequent the website, I'm just saying I cut down the amount I do watch on there because it wasn't healthy. I was mostly watching beauty related videos, primarily conventional beauty. Now that I have been switching to more organic, green, and natural products, I've un-followed so many YouTubers that are based in non-cruelty free brands and those that promote products rife with gross ingredients. Again, I'm not saying what they are doing is bad, it's just me turning a new leaf in my life and moving on.

Before, I would watch YouTubers' videos since I followed them, even if I didn't really care about the things they were talking about in their videos. It became my personal mission to make sure my video feed said "WATCHED" on everything. When I began noticing more and more videos tagged with #AD or #Sponsored, I became less interested. What happened to the days when people talked about what they loved and didn't care if they were paid or not? The ad videos soon turned into YouTubers all talking about the same exact brands, products, and fashion items. I could see exactly which influencers were being sponsored by the same brands, and I had enough. I truly miss the older days when it wasn't a competition to have a certain amount of followers and likes. Can we go back to the days when I would see that people posted because they really loved what they were talking about? Now, the industry is so congested with YouTubers and bloggers looking to get famous. It's ridiculous how much money is spent on camera equipment in order to craft the perfect Instagram photo, or the perfectly professional video. I honestly don't care about all of that. Just about every photo I take is done on my iPhone and without fancy apps to change the look. Gotta use what you know and can afford, right?

Looking back, the thing the sent me over the edge was the lists I would compile because YouTubers told me I had to have that item. I noticed at least half of the items on my lists weren't even products I needed. I just thought I needed them because everyone else had them. Is this a popularity contest? Please, no. See, it was becoming a problem. Thankfully, my bank account prohibited me from making terrible mistakes, haha! It's freaky how easily we can get sucked into societal standards, even the ones ruling the beauty and fashion industries. YouTube is just one place that facilitates and economizes on the popularity of these industries, so we should be careful. Again, I'm not saying any of this is cause for everyone to stop watching videos, I'm just saying I personally found it best to cut back on the amount I was watching.

Reasons why I don't make hasty YouTube purchases:

- The blogger could be paid to talk about a product, so how truthful are their reviews?
- Despite popular opinion, I don't really need seventy-five eyeshadow palettes.
- Just because it's high-end and luxury doesn't mean it's actually better.
- People won't stop liking me because I don't own the newest beauty releases. Really!
- Chanel and Gucci are not attainable for us common folk, sorry.
- I don't need twenty products in my nighttime skincare routine, alone, because of valid reasons.
- Etc.

Nowadays, I only follow a few YouTubers because it is incredibly hard finding bloggers on YouTube that are non-conventionally based. Most of them incorporate brands that I no longer use, so it's been easy to pull away from watching videos on a regular basis. Honestly, I use YouTube more to look up specific products and brands, instead of following people. If you have suggestions, share!

To finish, I may have cut way back on YouTube watching, but I do still use it!

Wednesday, October 11, 2017

Out of Africa Shea Butter Body Lotion (skincare step three)

Hello, hello! Today is the third and final post in my new skincare routine. I originally bought this Out of Africa Shea Butter Body Lotion for (duh) my body, but have since taken to using it on my face. One night, after putting it on my legs, I decided to use a little bit on my face. Trust me, I sweated and almost regretted my decision because I didn't want to have a breakout! The worst, right? Thankfully, not only did I not break out but my face actually looked amazing! After trying this lotion on my face a few days in a row, I was sold that this was the perfect moisturizer to add to complete my morning and night skincare routines.

Out of Africa claims that the shea butter is for nourishing, hydrating, and restoring. The website says their lotion is, "Rich in essential fatty acids [that] help restore and maintain skin elasticity and tone." I have to say I agree with EVERY claim Out of Africa has stated! My skin looks and feels nourished, hydrated, and tighter. When I say tighter I don't mean my skin feels tight like it's dry, instead my skin feels like it has been lifted. I think that is the restorative properties that are supposed to help with the elasticity of the skin. So, yay! Free early facelifts amiright or amiright.

Water (aqua), butyrospermum parkii (raw unrefined shea butter), glycerine, cetearyl alcohol, glyceryl stearate, caprylic/capric triglyceride, stearic acid, sodium lauryl glutamate, panthenol (pro-vitamin B5), tocopheryl (vitamin E), aloe barbadensis leaf extract, cucumis sativus (cucumber) fruit extract, rosmarinus officinalis (rosemary) leaf extract, dimethicone, potassium sorbate, xanthan gum, phenoxyethanol, caprylyl glycol.

Alright, let's just tackle the questionable ingredients now, okay? One, ceterayl alcohol, which may be derived from animals. It rates a 1 on EWG's website, so it's not normally a skin irritant. Two, stearic acid, which may be derived from animals. It also has a 1 rating on EWG's website. Three, dimethicone, which rates a 3 on EWG's website. Four, potassium sorbate, used as a preservative and has a 4 rating on EWG's website. Five, phenoxyethanol, which is used as a fragrance ingredient and preservative. It has a 4 rating on EWG's website because it may cause irritation.

I probably wouldn't have purchased this lotion if I had researched the ingredients beforehand, but now that I know it works so good on my face? I'm really torn about this. I will still look for other lotions once this bottle runs out, but I may be inclined to repurchase this one, since I don't think the ingredients are too terrible. They are all naturally derived, even the two possible animal derived ones, and the company is cruelty free! The ingredients that scored a 4 for possible irritants are further down on the list, so I know there isn't high percentages of those ingredients being used.

Overall, my satisfaction with this shea butter lotion outweighs the ingredient list. (shrug).

My routine: Thayer's Witch Hazel Rose Water Toner + Fig/Yarrow Orange Blossom and Lavender Complexion Water + Out of Africa Shea Butter Body Lotion + two x a day = happy me.

Sunday, October 8, 2017

Fig + Yarrow Orange/Lavender Complexion Water (skincare step two)

Happy Sunday! So, immediately after I use Thayer's Witch Hazel Rose Petal toner, I spray on the Fig + Yarrow Orange Blossom + Lavender Complexion Water. If you take a wild guess, I bet you will know that today I'm talking about Step Two in my brand-new skincare routine! I do have to apologize, though, because when I sat down to write this, I remembered that this Complexion Water is sold exclusively at Target. I'm sorry! If you're unable to order from Target, then I hope you can find something just as great on Fig + Yarrow's website.

Anyway, I bought this a couple of month's ago, but have only been regularly using it for a little over a month. Before, I would use it every few days, but once I noticed a difference in my skin I made sure to use it in the morning and then at night. Both times I use it is a followup to the Thayer's Toner. I think they are a great combination, since they both offer hydration for my skin. Since this complexion water is potent, like all the ingredients literally in my face (haha), I spray from a slight distance... usually one, sometimes two, spray(s). I haven't noticed it burning my eyes, but I always make sure not to have the majority of the mist near my eyes. Also, the product dries pretty quickly depending on how much water is sprayed out. I tend to let it sink in as opposed to rubbing it in.

This water is actually supposed to be for multiple purposes since Fig + Yarrow claims it can be used all over the body, including hair. I just use this on my face, neck, and decollete. It's made with essential oils and organic herbal extracts in order to promote "soothing" and "reparative" benifits. The Orange Blossom + Lavender Complexion Water hydrates and balances out my skin. Sprayed on top of the Thayer's toner, my skin is fresher and brighter. I am really pleased with this product!

Organic Aloe Leaf Juice (Aloe Barbadenis), Witch Hazel Water (Hamamells Virginiana), Lactobacillus Ferment), Organic Green Tea Leaf (Camellia Sinenis), Organic Goji Berry (Lycium Barbarum), Organic Calendula Flower (Calenduls Officinalis), Organic Licorice Root (Glycyrrhiza Glabra), Organic White Willow Bark (Salix Alba), Neroli Oil (Citrus Aurantium Amara), Lavender Flower Oil (Lavandula Angustifolia), Polysorbate 20, Potassium Sorbate

The last two ingredients are the only two that could be of concern, but they are the last two which means there's only a small percentage included. Polysorbate 20 and Potassium Sorbate are seemingly used as fragrance and preservatives in this product. On the PLUS side, the very FIRST ingredient is Aloe Leaf Juice, followed by Witch Hazel, two ingredients that are amazing for skin!

Target doesn't have the ingredient list online, so I typed it out myself. Any mistakes are mine.

Friday, October 6, 2017

Thayer's Witch Hazel Rose Petal Toner (skincare step 1)

Yesterday, I posted on my Instagram one of the products I've been using lately and decided I should probably talk about them on here. So, today I'm going to share Step One in my brand-new skincare routine. It's still not all the way figured out, but for over a month these products have been working fantastically together. Last month is when I noticed that my face has been looking brighter, fresher, and less dry. I tend to get some dry patches through my T-zone, especially around my eyebrows, nose, and by my lower lip. Recently, things have been so much better!

My skin is usually normal-to-dry, but also sensitive and blemish prone if irritated. For the last few years, my skin seems to respond better to more natural and organic products, so I have been searching for brands that offer pretty clean and nontoxic ingredients. After a lot of research, I purchased the Thayers Witch Hazel (Rose Petal) Toner. It took me about two weeks before I really noticed any changes in my skin. I'm still not sure if it is this toner, or a combination of the other two products, that has caused the biggest change, but I do think this toner has played a big part in helping my skin.

Why witch hazel? Well, witch hazel is derived from the leaves and bark of the Hamamelis Virginiana plant, and can be used for several purposes--- most notably for beauty, especially skincare products. Witch hazel is an astringent, an anti-inflammatory, and natural toner. Best for skin immediately after cleaning. Witch hazel can be used to cleanse pores and also to help reduce red and/or puffy eyes. Overall, witch hazel (alcohol free!) is really good for preventing skin from getting too dry, and also for promoting fresher and healthier looking skin. All things on my skincare checklist.

Combined with aloe vera and rosewater, this Thayers toner is perfect for people with sensitive skin! Rosewater, which I've noticed my skin loves, is good for anti-inflammatory, antibacterial, and hydrating purposes. As you can see, this is definitely a product set on calming irritation and redness, cleansing, and hydrating skin in order to give it a fresher appearance.

Purified Water, Aloe Barbadensis Leaf Juice (Certified Organic Filet Of Aloe Vera), Glycerin (Vegetable), Fragrance (Natural Rose), Hamamelis Virginiana Extract (made from Certified Organic Witch Hazel), Rosa Centifolia (Rose) Flower Water, Citric Acid, Citrus Grandis (Grapefruit) Seed Extract

It's clean! It's full of good and natural ingredients, and it works! Step Two soon...

Friday, September 1, 2017

Oh Hey Books! I read a lot of YA goodies this Summer...

I can't believe I'm finally getting around to writing up this post! I started thinking about it at the beginning of summer, but then didn't feel right about sharing a book list if I hadn't yet read any of them, so I held off. Now, I'm already back in school for the semester and hurrying to get this out there before Fall shows up and this list is too silly to share, hehe. So, as you can see my summer reading list this year was made up of young adult (YA) books. Last year I only read Jane Austen novels, but this year I gravitated toward my shelf where mostly YA books sit. There's really no rhyme or reason to what books I read. I usually go by what mood I'm in, or what books sound the most interesting at the time I'm picking one up. This summer, I wanted to read books I already owned, so I started there and then bought a couple more that I wanted to read. You'll see that there's three books by Kasie West on my list. Guilty! Her books are super cute and perfect for summer.

*Moonglass by Jessi Kirby
*P.S. I Like You by Kasie West
By Your Side by Kasie West
The Fill-In Boyfriend by Kasie West
Open Road Summer by Emery Lord
Jellicoe Road by Melina Marchetta
*Still Star-Crossed by Melinda Taub
The Season of You and Me by Robin Constantine

I have some posts floating around here on a couple of these books. I'll try to post about the other ones if/when I get some free time. A few of these I haven't quite finished yet, but I do plan on it once I get a better acquainted with my school schedule. For fun I put * near the books I enjoyed the most. Oh yeah--- is this the best time to mention I am listening to the Twilight movie soundtracks on Spotify? I figured a YA book list is not complete without the inspiration of a series that captured my attention for so many years. Hope you guys enjoy this cute/fun list before summer ends!